Ayumi’s Tale IV

Ayumi’s Tale
(11/9/05)

IV

Who am I?

You?

Who are you?

I thought you just asked
who you were.

I did, but who are you?

Me? I am me, of course.

Of course, you are you, but who are you?

I am me. I am also you.

But if you are you and
you are me, then who am I?

You?
You are nothing.

Impossible. I can’t possibly be nothing. I exist
so I must be something.

You are something
but you are nothing.

You are mad. How can I be something yet
not be anything?

You are something.
You are human.

Then I am not nothing.

But you are nothing.
You are nothing to yourself.

How would you know that
I am nothing to myself?                                                                     Remember, I am you.

Well, if you are me, and you say that I am nothing,
you too are nothing.                                                                         No.

You are nothing.
I am everything.

What do you mean? How could that be
if we are both the same?

But we are not the same.
We only share the same body.

So you are in me? You are a part of me?

I am in you. I am around you.
But I am not a part of you.
I am the you that you wish to be but
cannot be.

Do I wish so?

Yes.
You are nothing. You exist as a human being
yet you do not like your existence. You hate
yourself. You hate the way you are and the way life has
treated you. You think it’s unfair that there are bad  events happening to you when you are such a nice girl who
doesn’t bother anyone.

Y-yes. I mean, n-no.
That’s not how…

You are wrong. Have you ever thought that those events are all your fault? That you deserve those as punishments?
That  you are so conceited about yourself, thinking
you are all good and nice?
Don’t you think that behind your back  people are calling you

Self-centered                Egotistical            Liar
Fake                Bitch
Stupid            Untrustworthy            Deceitful

You are all these and more. You are not a nice girl.
You don’t see it.
You don’t want to see it.

No, that is not true.
Those are…

As for me, I am you but I am not all those.
I am not nothing. I am everything.
I am all that you wish to be but cannot be. I am the you
that should be. The you that everybody loves.
I am

Gorgeous                Creative      Nice
Clever            Talented                Friendly
Helpful                Warm-hearted

I am all these and more. That’s why I am everything and you are nothing.
I am everything that you are not, therefore you are nothing. Nothing but
a shell that looks human, but is not a human.

No. No.

N O.

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